alright~ what a Monday blue~ so blue that it happened just past twelve. i know it's my fault cause of my sucky attitude. but hey~ I've been trying to change. this attitude is back due to lots of things happening! you should know. not only you will be frustrated, i will be too. keep saying that i am close. can't i maintain a close relationship, am i wrong?! it's your responsibility to maintain close relationship too! thing do not happened cause of one person. all parties are to be blamed! i know by saying this i will get strike by the god, but i am just feeling so unfair! why am i always being treated this way. i'm not born to become a messenger or representative! i'm born to be me~ could you please understand my stand. i know you are frustrated and dis-hearted to this incident, but what happens had happened. face it, solve it and not grumble on it~

that's what i want to say but it will never be heard~what a day.