alright~ what a Monday blue~ so blue that it happened just past twelve. i know it's my fault cause of my sucky attitude. but hey~ I've been trying to change. this attitude is back due to lots of things happening! you should know. not only you will be frustrated, i will be too. keep saying that i am close. can't i maintain a close relationship, am i wrong?! it's your responsibility to maintain close relationship too! thing do not happened cause of one person. all parties are to be blamed! i know by saying this i will get strike by the god, but i am just feeling so unfair! why am i always being treated this way. i'm not born to become a messenger or representative! i'm born to be me~ could you please understand my stand. i know you are frustrated and dis-hearted to this incident, but what happens had happened. face it, solve it and not grumble on it~

that's what i want to say but it will never be heard~what a day.

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失望。。

事情早已成定局，现在后悔也来不及了。早知今日，又何必当初呢？

近日来，我发现自己越来越懒惰。就连同学也这么认为。

自己的定性，专注力，坚决性比起以前，现在差很多。

实在太放纵自己了，完全捉不住也控制不住自己。

成天发明星梦，当一个全职的舞蹈员，等等等。。。

但发现我一直以来都在原地踏步，就连一小步都没往前踏过。

自己往往因为担心会受到挫折而不敢勇于去尝试。

这样我哪里会有进步呢？

譬如舞蹈好了，经过多年来的训练下，我发觉自己根本没有什么太的进步。

学业也是年年处在退表演的状态。

就拿这次的考试成绩来说吧，这次实在推不到不行。

我心想，这次我该怎么保住我的三？

明明一直告诉自己要加把经！

要努力为维持成绩或有所进步，就算小小的进步也会很欣慰。

但是我却什么都没做到~

我太放纵自己了。

真的该是时候争做起来，做出一番成绩给自己看。

而不是象现在在这里吐露心事。

希望这是我最后一次对自己做这样的检讨。。。

Ballerina - Polina Seminova

she's Polina Seminova. The ballerina that i adore a lot. She's really talented. How i wish i can be like her. But, it's impossible.....(>.<)

Polina Semionova, born in Moscow in 1984, is a classical ballet dancer and Principal with the Berlin State Opera. She is regarded as a Prima Ballerina and is one of the youngest dancers to achieve this particular kind of recognition.

Studying at the Bolshoi Ballet School in Moscow, Russia, she won awards in the top ballet competitions; including a gold medal at the Moscow International Ballet Competition 2001, First Prize at the Vaganova-Prix Ballet Competition in St Petersburg 2002, and Junior Prize at the Nagoya (Japan) International Ballet Competition 2002.

Graduating in 2002, Semionova joined the Ballet Staatsoper Berlin as a principal upon the invitation of Vladimir Malakhov, becoming the youngest principal in the company's history at the age of 18. She toured Japan as Malakhov's partner, the reason he had invited her to be a principal in the company. He gave her the lead roles in The Nutcracker and La Bayadère during her first season, following with the role of Tatiana in Onegin, which became her favourite role.

In 2003, at the age of 19, Polina performed with the English National Ballet in Swan Lake, receiving approving reviews from English critics. The following year she joined the California Ballet in their production of The Sleeping Beauty, again impressing critics despite what they termed a disappointing overall ballet.

Appearing in Herbert Grönemeyer's music video "Demo (Letzter Tag)", which was later uploaded to the popular video site YouTube, brought her into the public eye both in the dance community and to the general public.

Polina is one of the featured artists on EuroArts DVD "Divine Dancers Live from Prague", in which she dances a pas-de-deux from the ballet "Manon".

大野一雄

大野一雄-October 27, 1906 – June 1, 2010

Kazuo Ohno, a Japanese dancer who became a guru and inspirational figure in the dance form known as It was written of him that his very presence was an "artistic fact."
He passed away on June 1, 2010, at 4.38pm (jst), in Japan Yokohama Sen-in Hoken Hospital in Yokohama due to respiratory failure, at the age of 103.

Ohno was born in Hakodate City, Hokkaido Prefecture, Japan, on October 27 in 1906. He demonstrated an aptitude for athletics in junior high school and graduated from an athletic college in 1929, teaching physical education at a Christian high school. In 1933, Ohno began studying with Japanese modern dance pioneers Baku Ishii and Takaya Eguchi, which qualified him to teach dance at the Soshin Girls' School in Yokohama (from where he retired in 1980.)

In the 1950s, Ohno met Tatsumi Hijikata, who inspired him to begin cultivating Butoh, a new form of dance evolving in the turmoil of Japan's drab postwar landscape. Hijikata, who developed with Ohno and a collective group the vocabulary of movements and ideas that later, in 1961, he named the Ankoku Butoh-ha movement.

During the 1960s, Ohno sought his own style, while collaborating with Tatusmi Hijikata. In 1977, he premiered his solo La Argentina Sho [Admiring La Argentina], directed by Hijikata and dedicated to the famed Spanish dancer Antonia Mercé (known as "La Argentina," whom he had seen perform in 1926.) He received Japan's prestigious Dance Critics' Circle Award for the performance and subsequently toured the piece, impacting the international dance world from the 14th International Festival at Nancy, France, in 1980, to his American debut in 1981 at La Mama E.T.C. in New York City. Other cities on the tour included Strasbourg, London, Stuttgart, Paris and Stockholm.

His words:

“舞蹈是发自舞着内在的体现，所以舞者必须时时刻刻都以最真实，最深沉的形态生活”

“无须太多思考，用你的灵魂跳踏”

--大野一雄

STRUGGLING

I'm so not doing anything. wasting my day like this and not studying. getting up late from bed and skipping lessons become normal to me.... whats happening. I'm getting from bad to worse! exam is coming in just less than 60hours. and yet i still haven't start with anything. this year seems to be so tired and unpredictable for me. things are getting harder. more and more obstacles. and they are getting tougher to overcome.

again, i started to wonder. what is it the life of becoming a dancer. what will i be doing now if i chose another route, a route towards dancing. am i going the wrong way now or am i just taking a longer route as compared to the others. i wonder~

音乐剧- 大孝目键连

hello folks~

i'm finally here to update my recent doings~

just finished one musical production. it was a two day performances. it was my first time doing musical production. consisting of dance and acting. it's a great and rare experience even though it is really tiring. i think it's more tired as compared to concert?

had lots of fun and a great sense of achievement when the whole production! got to know a lot of people. actors, dancers, assistant stage managers, dressing crew, backstage crew etc. lots of memories even though we only got to work together for 4month . hard sweat tears, laughters, scoldings and bitterness. finally went through all these.

great thanks for the assistant stage managers who make the whole production a success! they had the hardest work in the whole production. making sure that every thing works well. THANK YOU!!

to all performers and crew of this production, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!! HIP HIP HURRAY!!!

[HQ] DBSK - Mirotic Live! [07Nov2008]

it's performed on my birthday~ haahhas

found this video on youtube just now~

it's been a year plus since i started to listen to their songs~

their vocal first attracted me, and then their looks

(*who doesn't goes for look right?~hahahas XP)

saddening this always and does happens~

they are in a law suit fight now~

not really sure on the actual reason why~

but is actually very sad to hear that they are not going to be together as a group anymore.

they are the nicest vocal boy band.

their vocal, looks, attitude and talents are so perfect when putting them together.

(they are also good as individuals).

but all wish that they can be together as a group right.

a friend to support on another, the fun they have, the sweat they had, the tiredness, the hard work, the tight schedules etc...

they are a family.

now they family is getting a 'divorce' where we, the 'children' as supporters and fans don't wish to happen happens~

unbearable consequences~the hottest Korea Boy Band is going to end~

but maybe to them it's a relief~

everyone knows that there is always a darker side in the entertainment~

no one knows what really had happened, what really they had suffered etc~

but still, TVXQ is the best and i love this boy band~

thanks for bringing so many touching wonderful songs to my life~

thank you 동방신기

A new start

~Dance Freely~

changed the blogskin out of a sudden. not knowing why but just wanted a fresh look for my blog. but one thing i cannot figure out. why can't i have the comment bar below very of my post? cause i don't feel like putting the c.box thing-y~ does anyone knows why? can tell me??

anyway, it's going 3a.m. and i'm still awake rushing report which due tomorrow. got lots of things to do. really a lot. and was feeling sick these days. worried. lack of rest probably. who knows. hahahas. just want to be set free~

and something i realized recently. never never make empty promises unless you are 200% sure that you are able to fulfill it. NEVER NEVER NEVER~

is this really what i want to pursue? did i really learn and improve through lessons? i really want to dance my heart out. dancing everyday or maybe 4-5times a day. makes me sweat and really dance. having night lessons learning new things and performing. but now, i don't feel all these.. what i feel was continuous choreographing without learning anything. just busy performing choreographing and performing. is this really what i want? is there any other path that i can maybe walk on? i wondered~

what the F***K! why can't you just say nicely. don't you know that i just want a new image. i know you'll confirm be angry about that dressing. but what do you want me to do? it's at this price in the market. what can i do? bring you along? ending up buying nothing and gain lots of nagging. please. 饶了我吧！was in such a good mood and wanted to share the good news to you. before i could say, i get a nasty nagging from you. it just irritate me. really feel utterly disappointed and lonely. no one stands on my side.

大家好，今天我又要用华文来代写咯。首先，祝大家新年快乐，虎年行大运，做事不要马马虎虎哦！

住所有情人情人节快乐！！

新的一年，就要有姓的目标，新的愿望。我去年的目标直达到达了几个，今年一定要达到更多！

去年，我想：

1 学韩语

2 立功的成绩至少要有个三

3 要把坏脾气改一改

4 要省钱

5 在舞蹈方面有所进步

但是，现在回想看，我好像只实现了2 和3 的一丁点吧。1 韩语我自学了一半就丢在一边了。

因为自学实在太难了（自己给自己的借口>.<|||）。4 好像只位置了差不多半年。下半年又开始乱买东西。

5 舞蹈方面的颈部自己一点感觉都没有。嗨。。五个目标只实现了两个，好像有点可悲噢，哈哈。

惨了，我今年累积了去年不就有更多的目标？！怎么办！我会不会太贪心了一点啊？

好，让我来说说我今年的十大目标与六大愿望。 你们帮我看我会不会太贪心了呢？

2010年十大目标：

1 改变形象！！

2 立功成绩维持最少三

3 学韩语

4 省钱！

5 继续跳舞

6 把脾气完全改掉！

7 长进点

8 不要越大越糊涂！

9 学习处事待人之道

10 学会更独立坚强

2010年六大愿望：

1 学现代舞

2 学国际标准舞

3 学芭蕾

4 学溜冰

5 自学化妆

6 自学剪发

*还会再加哦！*

会太贪心了吗？我觉得我的愿望因该很难实现吧。没关系，完成十大目标就行了！

我可以做到吧？！明年再来回顾今年的目标吧！！

好啦，今天就写到这里！在此祝大家虎年快乐！红包哪多多！晚安咯各位！

^-^

Just a few more days and it's Chinese New Year. This year don't really have the new year mood compared to the past. No decorations were up at home. Haven't really done my spring cleaning for my room. Table was in a mess. During the new year week, have to head back to school on Thursday for AVS presentation and report submission. After the CNY week will be exam for both Economics and Project Management exam. *STRESSED* After that will be a week of break before my ITP starts. Looks like this year is much busier compared to year 2009. Have to get used to it i think.

Also, had quite a number of performance during CNY season this year. Was actually quite happy as i can spend my day with my beloved senior dance mates. Just enjoy the time with them.

Shall talk about some of the things today..Couldn't get asleep yesterday night till 3plus i think. Woke up at 7a.m. and prepare to go to school for my last GEMS lesson. Only 5 were present in class today. Pathetic right. hahahaha. After lesson, headed to food court 1 for coffee as my eyes are seriously closing. Went for test and was quite disappointed in myself. Wasn't as smooth when answering compared to last term. Worried that it will pull down my overall marks. Nah. Forget it. it's already a fact now. Headed to food court for Pizza lunch as our class bonding to spend the $7.50/student given by the school. had lots of fun while having the lunch. talk, laugh, joke etc. Really enjoyed a lot!! DEPM/1B/06!!!사랑해~ haha..

lastly, I've severely overspend this month and had not bought any new year clothes yet!!

*Liyun, i've updated!! hahahahas*

好久没有更新我的部落各了。。。突然间心血来潮想用话语来表达我最近的心情。。 哈哈。。我开始咯！！
又是星期一，总觉得时间过得越来越快的！一个星期又这样飞快的飞过！快的能用‘超快的’来形容时间飞过的速度。。。算算开学已经两个星期了，在多三个星期就考试了。。。（你（说看，快不快？！） 加上舞团在新年期间又接下了很多表演。。自己的学业经度已经很落后了。。周末又加上舞蹈练习。。。 完全没有时间休息。。有点吃不消，让我感到好力不从心啊！！！
上两个礼拜因为有功课要赶。每天不到两点不睡觉。。。两个星期下来瘦了一公斤。。。算是一件好事吧！！！*苦中作乐* 哈哈哈。。。现在又有多不完的功课。。老师又还有那么多东西还没教。。刚刚由接到学姐的简讯说二月头油演出。。日期由刚刚好在我考试的前一天。。这叫我该怎么办！！！跳还是不跳？？？
我现在的生活只能用两个字来形容，那就是“单调”！早上起床，上学，放学，回家，吃饭，作功课。周末就起床，跳舞，回家，准备刑期以上学所需要的东西，睡觉。这样子又过了一个星期。。很单调吧！！